Will whore for interwebz...

My computer has died.

This makes me sad. :(((

And means that I have no internet. Due to not having a working computer.

I have no idea when I'll be back.

But I miss you people!

Oh, how things can change.

Ok, my last little rant. Great fun, that.

But now it's time for updates.

Short updates because I have to be ready to go to work in 15 minutes and I'm still sitting here in my PJ's like a lunatic.

I'll be posting later about a trip to Vegas (first time going), a trip to Yosemite (again, first time), and a trip to Monterey Bay Aquarium (haven't been in forever).

But before I get into all that goodness.

The army boy and I are not talking right now. He's stopped talking to me because my roommate's been talking a lot of shit. And so I've stopped talking to him because I'm sick of dealing with immature high school bullshit. I hate the little kid drama. And being the fact that I'm 23, I feel I've dealt with more then my fare share of it.

In the meantime, the boy has been wooing me. Started with the trip to Vegas. And then after he took care of my uber drunken ass, I realized that he really did genuinely have a thing for me. After all, how many guys will stick with you while you're being wheeled around in a wheelchair because you're too drunk to walk, have no shoes on, lost your panties somewhere, am covered in puke, and holding onto a red biohazard bag that is your impromptu puke bag. (As I said, more on this later) Anyways, we got back home and spent a week getting to know each other on a much more personal level. And when we went to Yosemite on Saturday, I decided to stop being stubborn and just say yes to the boy. He'd asked me to date him a few times already. And after spending the day with him in Yosemite, I cracked.

So I'm now together with the boy. Completely 100%.

Laughable, ain't it?

Now I'm off to dry my hair and be dressed in 5 minutes! Whoo!

Don't read this if you don't enjoy sex + cussing.

You say that you don't want anything more then friends from me. There's no attraction on your end. So I give up on my emotions and throw them out the door, content to just be your friend. I finally started being able to see you as just a friend. Besides, you have your senorita that you're trying to get with. So it's all good.

3 weeks later, your friend is visiting from the army. He arrives on Tuesday. Leaves the following Monday. You know that he was sleeping with me. You know. Because I told you. It didn't phase you at all. Instead you high-five me and tell me that you'll be my back-up for when he's gone. I agree, but honestly I still just see you as a friend. There's no more chemistry towards you.

You go to Vegas with him. And somewhere along the lines you decide that you really care for me and that you miss me. EVEN THOUGH I JUST FUCKED YOUR FRIEND FOR A WEEK.

And now you want to ask me out when you get back from the Vegas trip.

And not only that, but you've told everyone of your intentions to do so.

So I have everyone asking me what I'm going to say. And I honestly don't know. I don't want to break you down because I'm still too nice of a fucking person to be able to tear people down. But I am still madly attracted to your friend.

I want to have more wild crazy times with him. It was amazing and unbelievable being with him.

And I just think about him. Not about you.

And I know that it's nothing that either of us can control.

But I was rejected and I got over it.

So what the FUCK changed your mind?! And what the fuck happened to your senorita that you were still talking about while I was sleeping with your friend?! What the fuck did your friend say to you? What was said on that damn car ride?!

I'm tearing myself apart right now. I have no idea what to do. I just wish that you'll change your mind and chicken out and not ask me.

This makes me such a bitch. But I don't want to deal with this right now.

And I'm really peeved about it.

What the fuck am I suppose to do...